Monday, May 9, 2011

im worried .

here's the thing .
the grand final competition is around the corner .
But ,
my other teammates are playing around ,
always didn't come to practice session and not getting their head on the team .
It drive me crazy ,
where the hell is the passion guys ,
i miss the old zenith .
that full of passion and spirit ,
if we want to win this .
we need to work hard even harder .
this is not a small thing .
it is a big deal .
we are going to competing with 9 others team .
and they are so good at it ,
they can simply beat us and win the competition .
we don't want that , didn't we ?
and its not easy to go there and perform our routine if we didn't
practice our routine perfectly .
i've sacrifice everything for this competition .
even i've quit from the volleyball team for my collage .
because i want to get my head straight up for the competition .
can't u guys do the same thing ?
im begging u guys .
we need to win this .
its been a long period of time zenith didn't win any competition .
if we can won the competition last time .
and its not impossible to win this again .
we are the first team that won Metro's cheer competition back to 2009 .
if we can did last time .
i bet we can bring back the tittle .
yes we can guys .
i know we can do it .
i know zenith will do whatever it takes to be on top .
right ?
show the spirit guys .
we are on our way to the top .
yes we are .
we don't even have coach to guide us .
we can do by ourselves ,
we just need to go trough this together .
we're in this together .
i love u guys .

Sunday, April 17, 2011

what should i do . i love you .

at last .

i found my mr. perfect .

but .

i cant be with him .

he has girlfriend .

and the best part is .

he's in love with my friend .

can see right how hurt is my feeling .

well .

i'll try to pretend that im ok with it . . .

and i'll try to forget my feelings toward him .


its hard for me

i just cant .

i like him .

and im started to feel something

love is starting to bloom .

mmmm . . .

what should i do . .

p/s : please find me DORAEMON !

Sunday, February 27, 2011

after 2 years of my cheerleading passion

i had a leg injuries and others . .
its kinda hurt . .
hahaha. . .
its still hurting me cause i cant rlly make a move. . .
urgghh . . .
but its ok . . .
kalo x nak sakit xpyh jadi cheerleader. . .

and one more thing. . .
2day .
im cheering without my main flyer .
zaa eyzaa .
its felt odd .
when she's not on the met with Me and the other team members .
yup . .
i hate it so much . .
i rlly want her to cheer with me .
and i hope after this she'll be with us again . .
but its ok . .
she was there and give us support .


Sunday, February 13, 2011

perlu ka ?

yup .
i still love you .
but ,
im done .
no more chance .
i cant handle to be hurt again and again and again and again !
im done with ur game .
also your dick .
bye bye

Saturday, January 22, 2011


its killing me !
i wanna a break up ok . .
please let me go .
im done with u .
its getting bored over here .
enough with all the pains .
its hurting me so bad
i cant take it anymore .

i dont want u anymore .
and i dont want us to be together .
dont put the burden on me !
i cant handle it anymore .
its always me to feel the pain .
again and again and again .

i dont feel the LOVE anymore .
and i cant find any light that can torch our rapport .
and i dont think that u care bout us .
if u do care .
please .
show it .
but u never did .
and make me off one's trolley .

u always complain that im always mad at you
but . .
have u ever think about the tail ?
never right ?
and u're always quoth that its all your fault and never make a change .
u know that u were wrong but u just let it be and never try to fix it .
come on la .
u an adult .
u have a brain please think bie !
please !
iloveyou and i dont what to loose u . .
but .
u make me want to go away from ur life .
u make me suffer .
and u make me look like an idiot !

please change . .
this is the last and final leeway .
and please take this for good !
i love you . .
and dont make me change my mind !

Saturday, January 8, 2011

is it a new chapter of me ?

here i go again .
i'll be away from shah alam .
cause im gonna continue my studies at
KTT bandar baru salak selatan , sepang .
im taking fashion design under UiTM .
yeah its hard .
but that is my passion .
im born to make something creative .
no more business studies .
im gonna make my own clothing store .

but .
this is my 1st tyme been separated from IBU .
ya i do agree .
i am mummy's boy .
and im proud of it .
and i cannot imagine hows my life there without my mum .
its gonna be freaking hard for me .
but .
i need to prove to everyone that i can do it . .
im gonna show to my dad that i can do it . .
i can make a change .
i can be on my own .
i can be somebody someday .

i'll be missing everyone here .
including my cats and my pandanus trees .
but .
i'll try my best to be ok there .
ktt here i come .

i'll update more bout my new life soon . .

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

why im still alive ?

I want to succeed in life , and be a good person also a nice big brother to
give a good example to my little brother and sister .
i want they to be a nice person someday .
but .
i know .
im not good . im not perfect and yeah i dont even give them a good
example all i know i playing around and have a lot of fun .
i dont want them to growing up without male role models
who can help them to think an open mind and maturity .
i was there before .
i am . 
I'm in exaggerated with no male role models .
ya .
i have a father . i do .
but he has a disability and make our interaction is limited
so I grew up with the only example of a woman .
and i dont want my siblings feel the same way as i was before .
im not put the blame on my father .
i still love him .
he's the one who feed us .
give us money and fulfill our needs .
and im so proud of him .
although he was blind, but he can work and provide for our family .
and to you .
my mom .
my heart and soul .
i love you more then what i can tell .
you're my life .
I can not imagine how my life without you .
you're one of the most resilient in the face allegations .
and i adore u ibu !
i want to be just like u !
thanks cause u were always there when i need someone 
to talk and when i need a shoulder to cry on . 
I really appreciate it !
To you my little sister !
" kau ni banyak sangat main-main "
well .
no one can replace you baby !!
To my little brother 
I know we did not go well but the reality is .
i do love u !
maybe its hard for me to express it in terms of feat . .

iloveyouguysmorethanilovemyself !